Tucker and Lizzie sat in a booth at the truck stop along the
edge of the highway, staring silently out into the night,
both looking in different directions. Lizzie was hungry, of
course, but not for anything on the menu. Tucker was
bewildered and heartsick. The place was practically
deserted, no locals at all, just a few long-haul truckers
sitting by themselves reading paperback westerns or, in one
case, a smut magazine carefully folded into a day old copy
of the Star Tribune.
In the pale glow of the fluorescent lighting, Lizzie looked
more dreamily beautiful than ever but the light made Tucker
look washed out, old and vulnerable, and burdened by the
weight around his heart. She glanced worriedly over her
shoulder at the empty booth behind them and then around the
restaurant, her gaze settling at last on the waitress
leaning on the counter by the coffee pots. She was texting,
holding her hands awkwardly to compensate for her extra long
nail tips.
“Red Arbuckle? Jesus, honey,” Tucker said. “I went to school
with his younger cousin.”
She drummed her fingers on the table top nervously. “Please
don’t tell me about him. No details. All that really matters
is he was a bad man. He was doing bad things to his wife and
daughter.”
“I believe that,” Tucker said, swirling his straw through
the remnants of a chocolate malted, melted down to a watery
paste. “That little girl always looked scared. Guess we know
why. She’s probably even more scared now that she’s seen two
strangers eating her dad.”
Lizzie turned even paler. “There’s something about it
though, something hard to describe. It’s like they didn’t
even register that we were there, that we were, you know,
doing anything.” Her eyes glittered with uncried tears.
“They seemed kind of numb to the whole thing. Something made
them quiet and resigned. Except for the man.”
“Red. His name was Red.”
She dabbed her eyes with a napkin.
“I talked to Bart,” he said. “They think maybe Cindi did it
out of self defense, but she doesn’t remember anything and
he’s not so sure. Probably doesn’t matter because no jury
will likely convict if he was molesting that little girl.
Lizzie, I can’t believe you killed someone. And then ate
them.”
“I didn’t eat them,” she said indignantly. “I’m a vampire,
not a cannibal, not a zombie. I drank his blood and took his
life force. He was a bad man. He deserved to die.”
“Really? Because that’s usually only something that God, or
possibly the government, gets to decide.”
“What are you saying, that either I’m a god or some kind of
monster?”
“I don’t know what to say. I’m totally unequipped to have a
conversation about the morality of my pregnant girlfriend
sucking the life out of one of my neighbors.”
“I didn’t ask for this. And I don’t like the fact that,” she
paused as the waitress appeared with a coffee pot. The young
woman shrugged at the coffee pot in a silent question and
Lizzie nodded for her to top off their cups.
“I don’t want to be in charge of the Council, I don’t want
to be a murderer and I certainly don’t want to be able to
tell you that someone in this room gets off when animals are
in pain,” Lizzie said.
The waitress caught her breath and flinched, slopping coffee
onto the table. She looked at them both, horrified, as
Lizzie caught her arm in a vice-like grip. “Stop it. Stop
what you are doing,” she said. “They deserve better. I mean
it. No more.”
The girl stifled a shriek and scurried back to the safety of
the kitchen.
“All I really want is to have our baby and grow old with you
and fight about stupid stuff like why you floss so goddamned
loudly,” Lizzie said. “But that’s not going to happen, is
it? I can’t grow old, I can’t have a normal life, I can’t
not kill people and the only possible solution I can think
of is to just take my own life and be done with it. Is that
what you want?”
Her fury subsided and she focused on the French fries
suffocating under a congealing mass of brown gravy, stabbing
them angrily with a fork. The silence stretched on between
them until Tucker took a deep breath. “I really floss too
loud?” he asked.
She choked out a sound that was half laughter, half anguish.
“Yes, you do. It sounds likes you’re playing the fucking
violin with your teeth. But I don’t care. I mean, I do care
— it drives me bat shit — but those are the kinds of things
I want to fight about. Not all of these huge, ridiculous,
impossible things like how do I keep the Reptiles from
killing off humans and who do I feed on to keep our baby
alive without feeling like a sadistic freak. And I can’t
bear it that you think I’m a monster.”