CHAPTER ONE

Come, Thou Fount of every blessing,
Tune my heart to sing Thy grace;

March, Fredericksburg, Ohio

Caleb Beachy pulled the wagon up to the door; then carried two buckets brimming with sap into the barn. Careful not to spill the sticky liquid, he struggled up the stepladder and dumped one and then the other into the sap evaporator.

"How many does that make, Cal?" Pushing up the brim of his hat, James Weaver peered up from his crouched position in front of the woodburner.

"These are seventy-seven and seventy-eight for today, one-forty-two including yesterday's for the weekend. But who's counting?" Caleb winked to let his friend know he was teasing. Then he returned to the wagon for the rest of the sap—his eighth load of the day and by no means his last. Other friends and neighbors were collecting buckets from Weaver maple trees spread over two hundred acres of wooded hills. The trees had been planted by James' grossdawdi many years ago. The other workers would combine half-buckets together and set them in rows at the collection point on the trail. Caleb and his daed each drove a team of Belgian draft horses to the Weaver sugarhouse, a veritable beehive of activity every January, February and March.

Maple syrup, along with sugar candy in a variety of shapes, was the cash crop for the Weaver family. Plenty of people preferred real maple syrup on their pancakes and waffles instead of the less expensive cane syrup. And judging by the joyous expression on his face, James would still be producing syrup when he was a grossdawdi.

As for Caleb, he couldn't wait to take a hot shower and wash away any remaining amber goop. "How many trees did you tap this year?" he asked good-naturedly. As much as he disliked the work, he liked James. And friends within the district were few in number since he moved back from Cleveland.

"Over two-thousand." James straightened to his full height of barely five and a half feet. "That's a record for us." Tugging off his gloves, he drained his water bottle in a few swallows. "If prices stay as high as last year's, we should have plenty to pay taxes and fatten the medical expense fund." His bright pink cheeks and curly red hair gave him a boyish appearance. James couldn't wait to find a wife so he could grow a beard, insisting he would then look his age of twenty-five.

"Well, I plan to stay until your last tree runs dry." Cal offered his most authentic smile. "Without a job, working here for free was the best offer I got." They both chuckled.

"Don't forget we give you lunch. Plus you'll take home a year supply of syrup." James followed Caleb out to the wagon instead of feeding more wood into the evaporator. "Say, are you going to the big pancake breakfast in Shreve in two weeks? They hold it on both Saturday and Sunday, so it won't interfere with preaching services."

Caleb fastened the top button on his coat before the wind cut him in half. "I hadn't planned on it. My mamm fixes pancakes all the time. Why would I pay money for them? Besides, it'll be nothing but a bunch of English tourists there." He lifted two buckets from the wagon, spilling some on his leather boots.

"Nope, lots of Amish folk attend the annual event, especially if it's a nice day." James stepped closer to whisper conspiratorially. "Plenty of Plain women will be there too."

Caleb almost swallowed his tongue trying not to laugh. From his inflection, it sounded like James considered females as rare as gold or silver. "Gosh, I'm not sure I've seen one of them before." He strode toward the barn, trying to keep his buckets evenly weighted.

James followed at his heels and took no offense from Caleb's teasing. "Will you get serious? Here we are—almost a quarter of a century old and still no wives. If we don't get moving all the young, pretty ones will be snatched up."

Caleb climbed the stepladder, thinking his friend might climb up behind him. "What will that leave us—bald-headed grannies in their seventies? At least they should be great cooks by that age." He leaned back from the heat while emptying his sap into the evaporator.

James peered up from ground level. "Maybe Emma Wengard will come or Dot Raber. Then we could—"

"Are you allowing this fire to go out?" Ben Weaver appeared in the doorway of the sugarhouse, abruptly curtailing his son's romantic plans. Although his father sounded stern, his blue eyes twinkled with amusement.

"Nein, I'm just discussing something with our best employee." James sprinted to the wagon for an armload of split firewood.

"Employee implies a person gets a paycheck. I've only got ham sandwiches with hot coffee for you boys." Ben set down a cloth-covered basket and thermos; then returned to his own tasks. No idle hands during sugar season.

James washed his hands in a bucket of soapy water. "At least think about going to the breakfast. You need to get off the farm more. Aren't you bored since coming back from the city?"

Caleb rolled up his sleeves, picked up the bar of soap, and scrubbed off the dried-on sap. Seldom did anyone bring up his five-year venture into the English world. Most Amish people preferred to forget the life he led since leaving home in a fit of rage. "Bored? Nah, I'm not bored. I have a roof over my head without a rent payment to worry about. I eat three square meals a day from the second best cook in Wayne County. I have clothes on my back and not one, but two hats to my name." Caleb pulled on his suspenders. "And I get to barrel down the road at eight miles an hour as long as it's not snowing or raining too hard."

James wasn't sure how to take the sarcasm. "Are you thinking about moving back to the city?"

Cal met James' eye. "Absolutely not. The English world isn't what it's cracked up to be. When my car broke down, I couldn't afford to repair the junk-heap. After I could finally afford to buy a truck, it got towed because I parked in the wrong spot. By the time I figured out where they towed it, the impound fees and fines were more than the truck was worth. Without a vehicle I couldn't get to work on time, so I got fired."

James seemed to sort the details in his mind. "Wasn't there public transportation or a coworker to give you a lift?"

"Even if I caught a ride to the union hall, I usually sat around twiddling my thumbs. Construction was slow, and I'm not just talking about winter. Without a paycheck a man doesn't eat. I don't know if you ever tried it, but going hungry is no fun."

James dried his hands and dug their lunch from the basket. "There must have been something you liked up north. You stayed away for five years." He handed Caleb two sandwiches.

Caleb slouched down against a post. "Plenty at first when I had wheels and a good job. But money management didn't turn out to be my strong suit."

His friend's confusion only seemed to deepen.

Caleb didn't know how much to reveal about his past. Could he admit he hung out in bars until closing time and bought people drinks he'd never seen before? Should he talk about sleeping with women who were little more than acquaintances? How about the fact he attended church only once during his entire time in Cleveland. Unless he counted church basements that operated as free soup kitchens. No, none of that would help him reconnect with his few friends in the district.

"Let's just say it's harder to be successful in the English world. And if a man's not successful, he's not going to be happy." Cal lifted the top slice of homemade bread to inspect the sandwich. It was almost an inch of honey-smoked ham and Swiss cheese with fresh lettuce, tomatoes, purple onions and bread-and-butter pickles. "Do you know how much a sandwich like this would cost in the city?"

Shaking his head, James took another bite of lunch.

"Eight or nine dollars. All I have to do here is put in ten hours of hard labor."

The two laughed in camaraderie before returning to their assigned tasks—James tending the evaporator and stoking the fire; Caleb ferrying endless buckets of sap to the sugarhouse. But when Caleb climbed into his buggy to head home that night, he felt tired but content. He had helped a neighbor and filled his hours with muscle-building work, instead of spirit-draining mental activity. Each day the sun grew warmer and the hours of daylight longer. Cal had even spotted a robin that morning—a sure sign that spring was around the corner.

Spring would definitely help his disposition. He needed to get out of the house. A man could only sweep the barn or restack hay bales so many times. Once the land dried out, they could start plowing and planting. Outdoors with the sun on his face and the wind in his hair, he felt free.

And less like a prisoner.

His homecoming on Christmas Eve had been sweeter than he imagined it would be, surely better than any prodigal son deserved. His mother had fawned over him for days—cooking his favorite foods and baking extra sweets. His three sisters welcomed him with unabashed affection. Sarah made no mention of his empty refrigerator in a deplorable apartment. She greeted him with a smile each morning, always ready to smooth his transition from English back to Plain.

Caleb didn't mind owning few clothes. Or the fact his mamm cut his hair to look like every other Amish man in town. He didn't even mind his slow mode of transportation. But must his father watch his every move like a prowling dog near the henhouse? Couldn't he give him the benefit of the doubt? Why did Eli Beachy treat him like a shirttail relative dropping by on his way to a family reunion?

He had come home, but his father refused to believe it.

* * * * *

Eli watched his firstborn toe off his boots from the kitchen window. His face looked smudged with soot and raw from the wind while his chore coat was dirty beyond belief. It would take Elizabeth every trick in her laundry book to get the coat clean again.

As Caleb swept open the door, Eli let the curtain drop back in place. "Leave that jacket on the porch, son. It's filthy. What's the matter with you?" An icy blast filled the room.

"Nothing is wrong with me. It's cold outside." Shrugging off the garment, Cal tossed it onto the glider. Once inside, he headed straight for the bathroom.

"Your mamm's been holding supper for you. The rest of us are starving. Do you know what time it is?"

He halted halfway across the kitchen and peered at the battery wall clock. "It's six-thirty. Sorry, mamm. James wanted all the buckets down to the Sugarhouse before dark." Caleb spoke to Elizabeth over his shoulder. "You've got no idea what critters come down from the hills to make a feast...or a mess if we leave them out. Animals can smell something sweet a mile away. Mind if I shower before I eat?"

"I can just imagine." Elizabeth lifted pans from the oven with her mitts. "No problem, nothing bad will happen if meatloaf, mashed potatoes and butter beans sit for ten more minutes. You go ahead."

Caleb shut the bathroom door behind him without acknowledging his father. A sign of disrespect, thought Eli, joining his fraa at the stove. "That boy spends more time down the road than he does at home. It's as though we don't have enough chores to keep him busy."

"I heard him ask if you needed help with milking last evening and you told him no." She carried the double meatloaf to the table's center trivet.

"Well, I didn't, not last night." Eli frowned as she returned to the stove.

"And he asked if you needed help ordering seeds. Sometimes the fine print in those catalogs is hard to decipher, even with reading glasses." She slipped her soiled apron over her head.

"The boy could see I had my magnifier out. How many people does it take to order a few packets of radish, carrot and turnip seeds?" Eli carried his mug of coffee to the head of the table and eased into his chair. "Besides, I don't like anybody to hover over my shoulder."

Holding a pot of beans aloft, Elizabeth stared at him over her half-moon glasses. "If you want or need Caleb's assistance, tell him what you wish done and when. Give him a list of chores, ehemann. Stop waiting for him to read your mind." She placed the pot on another trivet and walked to the bottom of the steps. "Sarah, Rebekah, Katie, come downstairs. It's time to eat."

Eli clamped down on his molars and dropped voice to a whisper. "I haven't needed help since he came home. January and February aren't exactly the busy season around a farm. If the Weavers could use him with sugaring, I don't mind sending him over. They gave me a hand last October with the corn harvest."

Elizabeth removed a huge bowl of salad from the refrigerator. "Now you've got me confused, Eli. What exactly is the matter?" She also spoke softly as she slipped into her chair.

"He barely pays me any mind a'tal since coming back. He seems to go out of his way to avoid me. And I'm his pa."

"Jah, but he's twenty-four-years-old, not fourteen. He's a grown man, accustomed to living on his own. You can't expect him to ask for help with his homework or for you to take him fishing down by the river. You said yourself not much is happening this time of year, so maybe there's not much to talk about." She pinched the bridge of her nose as though to stem a headache.

"I watched him from the corner of my eye at preaching last Sunday. He was practically dozing off."

Much to Eli's dismay, Elizabeth burst out laughing. "Goodness, he wouldn't be the first man...or woman to fall asleep during the younger minister's sermon. The man does tend to get long-winded."

"It's not funny. The boy should show me some respect."

Elizabeth stretched out a hand to pat his arm. "Like I said—he's not a boy; he's a man. Please be patient with him," she pleaded. "He was gone a long time and his shift back to Amish will not occur overnight."

He nodded, knowing she was right, but something still niggled in the back of his mind. "We don't know what his life had been like. Who were his people up in the city? What kind of nasty business had he gotten involved with?" Eli felt a frisson of anxiety run up his spine, not for his son's physical safety, but for his eternal soul.

"You're right. We don't know and we never will. It's not our concern. He hadn't joined the church yet so all can be forgiven and forgotten once he does. Let the past go, Eli. It's causing you much grief." Again she patted his arm as though he were a child.

"Then the sooner he gets baptized the better." When he lifted the lid from the meatloaf pan, the pungent aroma of garlic and onions filled the room, whetting his appetite.

"Give him a chance. And while you're at it why not give him a job?"

"Work for me again?" His anxiety didn't diminish.

"You said yourself it's almost spring. Soon the roofing contracts will pick up, along with barn building. Couldn't you use an extra pair of hands?"

"Jah, but—"

"With so small a herd of cows, the girls and I can manage most farm chores. We won't need Caleb home all day."

"But I thought—"

His fraa interrupted a second time—a rare occurrence. "Caleb is an accomplished carpenter. Sarah told us he'd been an apprentice for three years and had made journeyman. He was a member of the carpenters' union in Cleveland, so it's not like you're hiring a man without skills. The two of you working together makes perfect sense to me."

"Mind if I put in my two cents' worth? Or do you prefer to handle both sides of the conversation?" Eli glowered at his beloved wife.

She laughed at his distress. "Sorry, mei liewi, I got carried away. I grant you the floor." Elizabeth flourished her hand over the table just as his three daughters sauntered into the kitchen, carefree as a picnic on a warm summer day. Their youngest walked straight to the chocolate cake on the counter and stuck her finger in the frosting.

"Leave the cake alone and sit down," he thundered. "Why must your mamm fix supper alone while her three dochders laze around their bedroom like Englischers?"

Sarah's jaw dropped, while the younger two slinked to their seats like chastised hound dogs. "I baked the cake as soon as I got home from work," Sarah said. "Then I ironed every shirt and dress in mamm's laundry basket. I was sewing in my room until Cal got home."

Rebekah looked annoyed. "And I fixed the salad along with the mashed potatoes."

"I set the table." Katie sounded on the verge of tears.

"I can vouch for truthful statements all around." Elizabeth appeared to be biting her tongue.

"In that case, danki." Eli couldn't quite bring himself to apologize to his kinner. "Sit down, Sarah. As soon as your bruder finishes—"

"I'm here." Caleb stood in the bathroom doorway. It seemed to be the night for interruptions. His wet hair was plastered to his forehead and his feet were bare, but at least he wore clean trousers and a fresh shirt. "I hurried as fast as I could." On his way to the table, Caleb pulled both suspenders up to his broad shoulders.

"Let's bow our heads." Eli didn't close his eyes until every family member shut theirs. Then he waited long after his prayer before announcing, "All right. Let's eat." Faster than a person could draw a breath, bowls started flying around the table, silverware clattered, and female tongues began to wag.

"How's James Weaver?" Rebekah asked her brother. "What's he been up to?"

"Does anybody want to see Mrs. Pratt's new puppy after supper?" asked Katie.

"Mamm, did you remember to buy shampoo on your last trip to town? I'm practically out." Sarah's question was the calmest and most reserved. However, since all three had been asked simultaneously, none were answered.

Instead Elizabeth pivoted toward her son. "Sounds like sugaring is in full swing, jah? As soon as the Weavers no longer need you, your daed would like you to work for him."

Eli choked on a mouthful of salad. Sarah jumped up to pound on his back, while Caleb turned his dark brown gaze toward Eli. "Is that true?" he asked.

Eli wiped his mouth once his coughing stopped. "It is, but I don't seem to talk fast enough for the Beachy household."

His son neither laughed nor smiled. "Work for you for money?"

"Of course, for money. I pay all the men on my crew." Eli tossed down his napkin.

"How much?"

Rolling his eyes, Eli quoted the hourly rate for his most experienced employee.

Caleb considered for a long moment. "All right, I'll take the job once James no longer needs me." Then he devoured his three slices of meatloaf as though they would disappear if he didn't wolf them down.

No I'm glad to be able to put my carpenter's skills to good use.

No I would love a dependable paycheck so I can save for the future.

Not even as much as a "danki, daed."

The next words out of Caleb's mouth had something to do with mashed potatoes. But Eli was concentrating on his own meal, so he wouldn't say something he would regret. He had already questioned the wisdom of Elizabeth's suggestion, doubting their son would ever come back to the fold.

* * * * *

Sarah stood next to her boss on the front porch of Country Pleasures Bed and Breakfast. The requisite morning meal was finished. Every fresh strawberry swimming in whipped cream was gone, while the four groups of guests had put a healthy dent in the cheese soufflé with crisp Canadian bacon. She'd even seen one elderly woman fill a bag with the remaining blueberry muffins and iced cinnamon buns. Not that she needed to be clandestine. Lee Ann Pratt happily sent leftovers home with departing guests, along with the recipes.

All you had to do was ask.

Lee Ann would give the shirt off her back as long as it was warm outside. That had been Sarah's favorite quip since she started working here four years ago. People kinder or more generous than the Pratts would be hard to find in Amish Country, Ohio...or anyplace else.

Amish Country—she and her Christian sect were the reason tourists poured into Wayne, Holmes and Tuscarawas Counties nine months out of the year. A few brave souls even traveled during the dead-of-winter to snap photos of shaggy draft horses creating clouds of white vapor with each exhalation or farm fields blanketed in snow. Or they came to relax by the fire in a cozy inn, sipping tea or cocoa while reading a good book. The countryside was nothing if not peaceful during cold months. Some guests came to buy handmade quilts, oak or walnut furniture, local cheese, or free-range beef without the crowds and heavy traffic like in fair weather. Sarah enjoyed this time of year, especially since the B&B was seldom at full capacity. But their quiet weekends were rapidly drawing to a close.

"Thanks so much, Lee Ann!" A well-dressed woman in her forties hugged the innkeeper for the third time. "As always everything was perfect. We can't wait to come back, maybe in June. I'll check my calendar." Waving, she carried a small makeup case to their sleek sedan while her husband lugged three large suitcases—one for each day of their short stay.

Within a few minutes, the seven-member, multi-generational group from Medina trudged out the door. They too were effusive with their praise and grateful for Mrs. Pratt's hospitality. Pausing in front of Sarah, the matriarch studied her one last time. "It was a treat to meet someone Amish while we were site-seeing. We really got our money's worth." The woman pinched Sarah's cheek as though she were a toddler, and then followed her family to the parking lot. The last to depart were two young couples—one on their honeymoon. Both pledged to return to Country Pleasures each year for their anniversary. One husband added that it was much cheaper than Florida, considering the price of gasoline. Sarah and Lee Ann released matching sighs of relief when the final car tooted and drove off in search of their next bargain...or headed home and back to work.

"Goodness, that was a lively bunch." Lee Ann slipped an arm around Sarah's waist. "Let's go inside. It's not as warm as the sun would lead one to believe."

Sarah pranced ahead to open the door. "Is there anything left for our breakfast and Mr. Pratt's? That was a hungry group of people."

"I saved some in the kitchen just to make sure. With the work we have ahead of us, I'm in no mood for cold cereal or white toast with jam."

As usual, the innkeeper and employee ignored four messy guest rooms, plenty of towels and linens to wash, a dining room of dirty dishes, and a cyclone-hit kitchen until they ate their own meal. Sarah loved chatting with Lee Ann. The woman had enough stories about her missionary days in Africa to keep breakfast interesting for years. But today she had another topic in mind. "How's Caleb doing? You never talk about your brother much. And I seldom see hide-nor-hair of him on the lane."

Dividing the remaining food onto three plates, Sarah gave Lee Ann's husband the largest portion. She delivered his breakfast to the private family room where Roy watched morning talk shows; then settled down to eat by the front window. Their little table had a perfect view of the flower garden, bird feeders, and busy street down the sloping lawn. "There's not much to tell, I guess." Sarah picked up the coffee cup Lee Ann had filled.

"Oh no, you don't. You always say that. Then I pry out all kinds of tasty tidbits. Has he joined the Amish church yet? Did he find a job? What about a girlfriend? Has he found someone new or rekindled an old flame?" Mrs. Pratt's brown eyes almost danced out of her head.

"I truly think you should write books in your spare time with your vivid imagination." Sarah chewed a piece of bacon. "Let's see...no, no, and no. Any more questions?"

"Only one—how come?" Lee Ann crossed her arms over her full apron.

"It's hard to find carpentry work in the winter, especially since he doesn't want to work for Englischers. And he can't join the Amish church without taking the classes to prepare for baptism. And baptism is only once a year, usually in the fall. I'm sure he'll join the next class that will start in summer." Sarah swallowed some delicious egg and cheese soufflé.

"And?" Lee Ann drained her cup and refilled from the carafe. "He needs a nice woman to settle down with."

Sarah felt odd discussing Cal with Mrs. Pratt, but her boss had only his best interest at heart. And she wasn't a gossip. "I couldn't agree more, but he keeps to himself when he's not helping one of our neighbors. In the two months he's been home, he's gone nowhere other than preaching services. And if the rest of us remain to socialize, he walks home—no matter how far or how nasty the weather. When we go visiting on Sunday afternoon, he stays in his room. He tells my parents that he's not ready. I don't know how a person readies himself for eating pie and drinking coffee with folks you've known your whole life." Sarah's exasperation with her older brother slipped out.

Lee Ann reflected quietly while finishing her eggs. "He must be ashamed to face people—afraid they'll ask too many questions."

Sarah shrugged, setting down her fork. "He can't hide in his room or the barn forever."

Mrs. Pratt pinched her arm. "You need to do something, young lady. Before he decides coming back to Fredericksburg was a mistake."

"What can I do? Cal never asks me for advice."

"Think of something. What about those singings on Sunday nights? I'll bet plenty of single girls attend them." She leaned across the table as though in anticipation.

"True, but he says he's too old. He's not, but that's his excuse. Lots of men his age are there."

"What else is going on, social-wise?"

"He won't go ice skating with Rebekah, Katie and me because he hates being cold and it reminds him of his last apartment. So that rules out sleigh rides, tobogganing and ice fishing." Sarah finished her last bite of breakfast. "I'll have more success when the weather warms up. Cal always enjoyed volleyball and softball. And who doesn't love picnics, hayrides and bonfires under the stars?"

Her boss clucked her tongue. "Nope, you can't wait that long. Come up with something soon, before your brother disappears as mysteriously as he arrived on Christmas Eve. I know you love Cal, so put your imagination to work. Seek him out and get him talking. Don't let him hide from the world. He needs a confidant he can trust." She rose to her feet and stacked their dirty dishes. "Now, speaking of Rebekah, I think it's time your sister came back to work for me. If the recent reservations are any indication, spring seems to have arrived early in Wayne County. We can use your sister's help making up rooms and in the kitchen."

Sarah scrambled up to start her chores, but her former good mood had soured. Not due to Mrs. Pratt's suggestion about Caleb. She had been worried that his return wouldn't be permanent and agreed that he needed someone to confide in. No, her bout of depression had everything to do her sister coming back to Country Pleasures Bed and Breakfast. A morning spent working with Rebekah Beachy all but guaranteed a splitting headache by noon.